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alone again.
03:36
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I sat betwixt the digital and real expensive
Stop the synthesizers
I’ll call the bird again
She's my best friend
She always let’s me write it
It can be anything at anytime
Like how I’m thinking about forgetting and lying and changing minds
So many ways to rewrite a line
I’m mad at so called friends
But I might've misread it
How'd you sit content when I'm held in such contempt?
Content with having and being a favorite
Extents I'd go to have and be a favorite
Everyone I know got someone they like more than me
He’d object til he’s in love again but that’s cool man, I get it
But where is my number one position
The bird won’t respond, sometimes I’m sure she’s scared to listen
We’ll talk about anything at anytime, so why not then?
Bored and powerless, your afterthought playing pretend
Borderline desperate I’m feeling alone again
I guess I’m just feeling alone again
To the world who wants me to push forward, I’m still a mess
Years now fixated on
Every broken friendship
Emotions directly between black and white
The darkest of things and their exact opposites at the same time, all ahead
And all you’ve been and could’ve become is a distraction right?
Well these are only distractions living in the background but we still became such tangible such lifelong such real
I made some new friends
They hurt my hands, moreso my head
And I kept them a secret
But I’d like you to meet them
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2. |
Celica, on Ice
05:00
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I’m calling Kwan from the sidelines
05
Silent blades they whisper loudly in mind
Recurring little dream formed from nostalgic tv scenes the rink’s your stage, you’re out there going for gold but
Not in this life
Keepers don’t subscribe
To the aspirations of dancing on ice
You’ve kept built up inside because you’re not allowed outside
Froze in your cage
Still looks like school is your only escape
Little sunshine,
Creaking through from twilight
Move one more inch and they’ll hear you
Halted like a ghost or a trespasser instead
Divide in the room spells your disconnect
Is concern the same in an estranged tone
Clenched, a failure notice sent directly to your home
Is this what you want?
You know what I want, she’ll dim but they’ll riposte
Oh Celica that’s far too dumb
Oh so beneath me
I’m Shiva, snap
I supersede
There’s trailing diamond dust
But you’ll never see an ice princess leave
Sun’s down, and stay down please
The night’s alive with a routine
Feel that chill, an old reminder
Don’t let the dream die
Raised to find a way out
Steeled nerves, feeling confiscated
You honor setting suns
So sure that she’d run to fall
Shift, spin, shimmer like snowflakes
(Am I enough?)
Flawed execution no future olympian
(You’re not enough)
Figured you’d know how to skate
No skill, put hope in its place
(They’re laughing at you from afar, dream’s a joke, just like you are)
Shivering in fear of what’s next
Numb senses you won’t make it
(Rot in your room for life, forever knowing they were right)
And Celica you’ve worked for what?
Falling down in place
You’re dancing drunk on crystal plates
Your will is nothing
Yano talent’s getting younger these days
They’re right, it’s stupid quit
What you never could admit
They keep you in cause you’re so easy to resist
Raised to find a way out
Steeled nerves, feeling confiscated
You honor setting suns
So sure that she’d run to fall
Rise to fight your way out
The wrecked nervous vs condemnation
You honor setting suns
So sure she won’t run too far
Oh, you’re up, well move you're in my way
Tired of precautions, and sick of your safe
Here’s to dead dreams yours and mine if I stay
Don’t close curtains calling, no it’s never too late
You’ll fail, you can’t stop me, still living years out state
Hypothermic coma, I never got to skate
All that ever lingers, excuse before the faint
Celica, you’re far too young to run out on the lake
I’m still holding your cold wet hands in mine
Gloves lost to the bottom
With your pulse frozen in time
A decade, and I’m glad your memory’s been tucked in tight
We’re still seeing nightmares, the crack, the shriek, the dive
Now, I cannot find you
No I could never find you
Growing cold, we set your sun
I knew you would run too far
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Fate found open doors this time
On her way to bury us
You've been told it's poor design
To ruin
Let’s start the world back where circle found shape
Tan gen z Met Gala queen
See, can’t she sit next to me
Caught round spilling excess fiction
Narratives of false conviction
I’d like to trust your claim
But don’t you wanna stay?
If you know your own words are so absurd and out place
Hold youre pretty tongue you’ll be okay
You should control your compulsive urges
Fate found open doors this time
On her way to bury us
You've been told it's poor design
To ruin
Fate found holes in words this time
On my way from buried thoughts
You’ve been warned
But so have I
A ruse?
I had your backs but those eyes shook sincerely
Oh so distracted by a temptress’s attention
Holds merit and no motive
A type like her’s exploitive, leave it
That’s just petty judgement
Let’s point fingers
Back at you what’s worth the hiding
Hypocrite, you’re loyalty now tried
Just swear in truths to me
I’ve no reason to lie
None of us do, can’t you see
Really find her innocence contrived?
The fiercest wolf, so surely cried
How could she so easily
Jealous of our preceding
Torn round just who to believe
Offense taken, how long’ve you known me
Mind in spirals 1.5x
Calm, before the bonds we've built decline
Fate found all at once this time...
had your back but it’s dawned on me
How visible the line is dividing not just sides but our sanity
You stand devout through hazy smokescreen getaways, when it clears, you’re in full frame, or is that what you want me to...
No, there’s malintent, call the dogs, fetch the scent
Is it Chanel or familiar, I’ll take any hint i can get
One side trembles in fear, discontent, and I’m Pontius Pilate, reluctant, but this is their wish
If you know you’re own words are so absurd and out of place, ridiculous, I’ve been deceived
Sing remorse with me and this whole thing ends, we return to friends
It’s over, apologies please
But head hanging in disbelief, adamant,
I’m begging thee
Swallow your lies or your pride or I’ve found an enemy, her name is dead to me
Fate found no remorse this time
I swear I’ll bury her
You should know what crosses lines
Goodbye
Fate found your hands
Fogging up the timeline where you wane
Sick spinning secrets everyday
You’ve got a lot of things to say
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Always Fallen Butterfly
03:55
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First signs since merry weather
Full stop of all good we know
All that we know
Fall rise in brisk November
Cold hearts starve
Until you float
Until you go
Scurry scurry now
Up into your gown
You’ve got a lot to vow
You’ve got to get serious about this
Scurry scurry now
Won’t you face the crowd
Smile, make me proud
You’ve got to get serious about this
First time since Mary withered
Face fucked
Her eye’s aren’t so blue
Waste of a womb
No room for second errors
Don’t cry she’s with mom and soon
You will be too
Scurry scurry now
Up into your gown
You’ve got a lot to vow
You’ve got to get serious about this
Scurry scurry now
Won’t you face the crowd
It’s different this time round
You’ve got to get serious
Worse
Themes
You’ve
Dreamed
Go
Fall
Sweet
Angel
Grave
The cost of your incompetence should be an early grave
Autumn our offering depends on your fall
Say
The cosmos don’t concede do they?
What’s that I hear your name
Back, I command thee
Don’t make this your fault
Scurry scurry now
It’s only 60 down
Face first if you’re so excited
The all imperfect crown
I’m sure mom would’ve been delighted to save a seat for you in hell
You’ve got to get serious about this
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5. |
Walpurgisnacht
05:41
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Where the end is open
We will mind your stay
Cause of all commotion
Source of only bad intentions
Karma’s on the come up
Plans in disarray
Dust the cloak of reverence
Stripped of all their ultimatums
Empty of empowerment
Vanity in vain
Step right up to judgement
Reckoning for plague spreading
Caught with contradictions
In more like 4 decay
There’s no final warning
Now begins our vaccination
Scabs from the skylight turned scars over your scale-like skin
Swollen cyst
Oo la la, bat those lashes you vampyric sin
You misfortune embodiment
Got some bones to pick, we’ll pick them all out
Don’t worry, we’ll break them right back
Such spirit intact
Let’s fix that
Well you'll behold divine asphyxiation
New look for you, it’s deprivation
Learn it, you've taught it so well
Oh no, is heaven unknown?
You count so quick down like you have atoned
Oh, know your words shall alone
Sink you further below
We gather here today in art form to commend er condemn the life of name soon to be oh so irrelevant
that at this exact moment I declare it cease to be
With less than 4 minutes left on the clock, let us purge all harbored hatreds from our hearts
into this inflated mass of an abhorrent god complex
Oh wow, what an infection!
Rotten bloodpuss puked from every possible orifice
Have we made a mess?
Oh you’re clearly not impressed
It’s beautiful, beautiful i’d like to thank the audience
You’ve preyed on and scoffed at
They’re laughing now, at not with
I’ve got PBA, I can’t hold it in
Oh no, is heaven unknown?
You count so quick down like you have atoned
Oh, know your words shall alone
Sink you further than all the belows
Oh no, forever unknown
Forget a legacy
No lingering home
Oh, know your words shout alone
Tuned out, in orbit, headspace echoes
Indisposed
We picked flowers for you
Her name’s Belladonna
You’ll consume
(Ignorant glutton, she’s toxic for you)
Your sons and daughters with front row view
(Smiling whimsically)
Contagious and effervescent
Our reverie
Is finally as real as can be
Oh no, is heaven unknown?
You count so quick down like you have atoned
Oh, know your words shall alone
Sink you further than all the belows
Oh, go beyond the unknown
Expelled from existence
In reverse repose
Oh, know your words have alone
Redefined black-hearts, they look like hope
Where the end is open
We deny your stay
Calls rang for your exit
Answer fuhrer for your errors
With only 8 seconds
What else can we say?
We’re sick of your bullshit
So shut your mouth and die, okay?
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