I’m calling Kwan from the sidelines
05
Silent blades they whisper loudly in mind
Recurring little dream formed from nostalgic tv scenes the rink’s your stage, you’re out there going for gold but
Not in this life
Keepers don’t subscribe
To the aspirations of dancing on ice
You’ve kept built up inside because you’re not allowed outside
Froze in your cage
Still looks like school is your only escape

Little sunshine,
Creaking through from twilight
Move one more inch and they’ll hear you
Halted like a ghost or a trespasser instead
Divide in the room spells your disconnect

Is concern the same in an estranged tone
Clenched, a failure notice sent directly to your home
Is this what you want?
You know what I want, she’ll dim but they’ll riposte
Oh Celica that’s far too dumb

Oh so beneath me
I’m Shiva, snap
I supersede
There’s trailing diamond dust
But you’ll never see an ice princess leave
Sun’s down, and stay down please
The night’s alive with a routine
Feel that chill, an old reminder
Don’t let the dream die

Raised to find a way out
Steeled nerves, feeling confiscated
You honor setting suns
So sure that she’d run to fall

Shift, spin, shimmer like snowflakes
(Am I enough?)
Flawed execution no future olympian
(You’re not enough)

Figured you’d know how to skate
No skill, put hope in its place
(They’re laughing at you from afar, dream’s a joke, just like you are)

Shivering in fear of what’s next
Numb senses you won’t make it
(Rot in your room for life, forever knowing they were right)

And Celica you’ve worked for what?

Falling down in place
You’re dancing drunk on crystal plates
Your will is nothing
Yano talent’s getting younger these days
They’re right, it’s stupid quit
What you never could admit
They keep you in cause you’re so easy to resist

Raised to find a way out
Steeled nerves, feeling confiscated
You honor setting suns
So sure that she’d run to fall

Rise to fight your way out
The wrecked nervous vs condemnation
You honor setting suns
So sure she won’t run too far

Oh, you’re up, well move you're in my way
Tired of precautions, and sick of your safe
Here’s to dead dreams yours and mine if I stay
Don’t close curtains calling, no it’s never too late
You’ll fail, you can’t stop me, still living years out state
Hypothermic coma, I never got to skate
All that ever lingers, excuse before the faint
Celica, you’re far too young to run out on the lake

I’m still holding your cold wet hands in mine
Gloves lost to the bottom
With your pulse frozen in time

A decade, and I’m glad your memory’s been tucked in tight
We’re still seeing nightmares, the crack, the shriek, the dive

Now, I cannot find you
No I could never find you
Growing cold, we set your sun
I knew you would run too far